A Case of The 3 AM Thinks

"Well" I thought to myself lying in my top bunk in my apartment, "this has been unsuccessful. I have been lying here for over a half an hour now and I still can't fall back to sleep. Sometimes I don't understand you brain, Here I went to bed at ten because you told me you were done with thinking for the day and that you just wanted to go to bed and catch up on sleep then you wake me up at 2:45 in the morning for a glass of water and then decide that it will be more fun to keep the rest of me awake for the rest of the morning."

 I sat there arguing with my brain trying to  tell it that I needed to  sleep so  that I could function today, but it was to  no avail; my brain won the argument and it told me that I needed to  write this instead, Sleep can wait apparently. It’s peculiar how you think you need one thing but you get told otherwise. I am learning to deal with it and I am dealing with it because sometimes you need to post something on a blog that you haven’t written in in over a year. This is a horrible case of the 3 AM thinks.

It’s strange, I am not that I worried about anything or stressing about homework or my job with The Home Depot, these thoughts aren’t worrisome at all; in fact they are far from it. These thinks that plagued my mind this morning were one of philosophy and hope. It’s about how I have been living my life for the past month with my new year’s resolution. I guess it comes with any new change but I have made several changes for the better.

For those of you who don’t know me very well might think it’s strange that say this, but I love life. Despite all the evil and malice in the world there is so much wonder contained in this world that it is very hard for me to  become disillusioned with it. I love life and I am truly grateful to be alive. To me life is one very big adventure.  I can truly say that I am happy about who I am, and what I am becoming.

 For years I lived under a very simple illusion. Life was simple, I was one of those guys that would spend most of his days inside the four walls of his house playing video games and watching TV. I was so engrossed in that simplistic way of life that I missed so much more that I could have been doing.  It wasn’t until I learned to step outside my front door that I have truly begun to realize what it really means to be alive.

I know, scientifically if I am breathing I am technically alive, but I would like to submit to you otherwise. I believe that there is a huge difference between living and actually being alive.  I believe that we are on this world for a reason and we have only a few short years on this Earth. Most men and women live and die and only see a fraction of it. I know several people who have lived in the same town all their lives and have not ventured forth to explore much beyond their front door. What is it that draws men into their home so much, that they neglect the beauty and the wonder that is spread forth before them all over this world? Is there that we can take in that is beyond our front door?

Deep down I have this burning desire to see so much of it, it’s like this beautiful present that has been set out before me and I have only begun to pick at the wrapping paper. I want to see what I have in front of me, but I know that I must be patient in order to receive the whole gift. Then there are the people who don’t even touch that gift, the let it sit on the table left to collect dust with all its wrapping paper intact.

This, my friends is what I would like to submit to you between living and being alive. Who in their right mind would leave such a gift unopened? We have such a great present before us, and it takes us to open it and access its potential. If we lock ourselves in our room all day then we miss out on a world of opportunities that are before us. I love to  seek these opportunities and that is why  I am up in the early morning hours to  write this blog,  I personally believe that there is so much that we are capable of achieving in a day and we can have so many  wonderful stories to tell if we just go outside our front door.

So, here is my proposition to all of you who read this, make every day an adventure. Don’t be afraid of living. We were meant to be alive and to gain experience, which is why we are here on this earth. My plea to all who read this case of the 3 AM thinks is that they live life in a way that each day is an adventure. Step out beyond your front door and do vary from the beaten path that each person chooses to follow each day. There is so much more to  see just beyond our personal horizon lines, all we need to do  is take a few minutes to  actually do something different and break down those walls that we have so diligently built up for ourselves.

I would like to ask all of you who read this blog to love with me, I am going to live my life in a way that every day is an adventure and in the end when all is said and done it is something worth reading about. I implore you to do the same and post some comments on the internet about what you did to expand your life beyond the walls of our current realms. I will be increasing the upkeep that I have on this blog and I will post more as I venture forth into the unknown.

I love life and I invite everyone who reads this as well to discover the beauty that is out there.  Remember; adventure is waiting for you, it is up to you to seize it. Carpe diem.