Writing My Story

 A couple days ago I was having a conversation with my very good friend Missy about life and the trials that come with it. She is currently having a very hard time at home and is struggling with living at home with her parents.  I know what she is going through and I feel the same way I have been home from my mission for about a year now and I am ready to get out on my own and live my life and it has been kind of hard on me to live at home and feel like my life really isn't my own. I am ready to live out on my own and be myself. I want to live my life and gain experience and progress like I felt I was in the mission.

At home I  feel like I am at a stand still like my life has been postponed and is not moving forward but rather I am sitting around waiting for something to happen, I do not like that at all. On the mission I loved making my life happen and  choosing what I do. I loved making my life as interesting as I possibly can and I feel like at home that isn't happening like I am caught up in limbo here at home and that I really haven't progressed. I don't like that feeling.

the reason I am telling you all this is because of something that I realized not to long ago. I was thinking about life and how for years I sat around doing nothing but video games and sitting around my house and I realized that there are so many adventures to be had outside and that life is too short to just do that. I started thinking about my life as a book or a story and pondering about life like that. I began wondering if I would want to read my story if someone wrote all of it out would I read it and be inspired by it or just throw it to the side out of boredom. The first 18 years of my life were pretty pathetic I was a goofy nerd of a guy who hardly ever went out and did anything else.I didn't like that story at that point and then I looked at my mission and saw the guy I had become and who I was trying to be those two years of my life were filled with so much adventure, twists and turns, and character growth that I  would want to read about that. So I decided that I want to live a life worth reading about. I don't want to have this incredible awesome life that is so completely unbelievable. but rather I am trying to live life looking for adventure and finding things to do and being the kind of person that people can look a and say, " yeah that is a good guy."

That's why the other day I decided that I was also going to come embrace the trails that come my way as well. I know that life is full of them and I have even been bombarded with them this week but I decided that all good books have conflicts and without those conflicts the book would be really dull. A good story is needed to help a person grow and as I thought about this the more it mad sense. So I decided that come what may I would love it because the best is yet to come. I know that these trials can't last forever and eventually everything will work out so I try my hardest to embrace them and love every minute of my life. I know better things are on their way I don't know exactly what they are yet but they will eventually lead me to an amazing conclusion to my story.

I love my life and I know I am going to continue to love it and grow as I try my hardest to live life to it's fullest. Life is an adventure and I want mine to be one that is worth reading about and telling stories about later.